I confessed my love to you last month & nothing changed. I shouldn’t have expected anything to. You’ve made it quite clear that you don’t want to be with me. I hate that I love you. I hate it so much. You say that you aren’t ready & that you need time. I can’t handle this. I love you too much. God, it’s scary how much I love you. I know that even if I truly wanted to, I wouldn’t be able to walk away. Because I can’t imagine my life without you. So having you in my life just as a friend is better than not having you in it at all. Of course my feelings aren’t going away.. which makes everything so much harder. Why can’t this just be easy? Why can’t you love me like I love you?
When you fall you know, because you don’t mind the chance of death or the idea that you might not make it when you hit the ground. It’s like living inside a poem where every seemingly normal simple moment with her becomes the first moment of forever. You can swim in her soul and instead of your lungs filling with water you grow gills. And all the things that she thinks make her imperfect are the things that make you feel like you’re on top of the world. The way she covers her face when she’s nervous. All the words she doesn’t know how to say. Her tousled hair that accidentally falls in all the best places. She isn’t just what you’ve always dreamed of she’s … more than that. She is everything you never knew you needed. She doesn’t just fill a hole in your heart, she forges her own path to her own little spot that can’t and won’t ever belong to anyone else. Her eyes ask you, “Where have you been all these years? I’ve been waiting. I’ve missed you.” And you’ll her, “I’m sorry it took so long. It’s been hard to find you with my eyes shut.” You see when you fall, you realize all the time before having her you’ve spent sleep walking, and she’s awakened you. And though the descent may scare you, because it’s hard to know where you’re falling from, you’re sure… because when you fall it feels like finally coming home.
you get a place now here too <3